badfusion - bad quality poetry
Winter weekend ...
Last weekend I couldn't let anybody out for drinking. It's so hard to find somebody free in Friday evening and over 26 years. There are so many reasons to stay at home.
- My girlfriend is out and I have to guard a house ( Number 1. Most stupid )
- It's to cold (ok it was -5C)
- I am dead after work
- Nice movie in TV ( yes, sad but true )
- I am staying with girlfriend ( even if said "its ok to take her" )
I have to make +2weeks appointments?
I finally landed in sushi bar with my girlfriend and other girl (she is designing our new apartment) where our best chef was entertaining us very long.
Well, I'm trying to get people out city and do some snowboarding /skiing this winter. It's going to be very difficult.
Take me home...
We (that's me, my girlfriend and 2 other couples) rented a house in deep wood for celebrating new year together...
It was traumatic. I saw one couple first time after about 4 years. They are parents of two nice kids. The couple is still exploiting same music and movies like in high school. Damn. How long you can be in love to Dead Can Dance or Baraka. They will last forever in their pathetic world.
Other couple came with dog. Is that kid replacement? Just kidding.
I tried to make them stoned and drunk and make some fun. It wasn't huge success. I needed to make them drunk to relax them enough to get stoned. I had to take care and protect myself from monologue about parenthood and life.
My girlfriend was so cute and she stopped me to fall into "middle age crisis" ;)
Come to me and shut up.
I don't need any psychoanalytic sessions or family setups (its kind of game where different people attending the meeting are helping you to play again your "favorite" life scenes to help you understand things you can't see being inside yourself). I have simple rule in my mind ... to avoid toxic relationship. And this lets me travel trough the ocean of life ( banal - isn't it ? ) without storms.
Of course I can't completely kick out all bad connections out of my life. My girlfriend has really frustrated mind, my sister keeps some trauma from the childhood and my mother has some hysterical twist which I will never understand.
The problem is that all of them are suggesting me that in the world where psychoanalysts are the gods I have some psycho weirdness and the only reason its not visible is that I am refusing to understand my problems and I am refusing to go to psychoanalysts. Especially my girlfriend ... she is giving herself as an example of positive results of therapy and delicate pushing me into the hands of these greedy beasts.
Fuck. No. I prefer good fucking ... its relief compared to your blah blah about your mind traffic jam. Take off you panties, come to me and shut up.
butt and light
I wiped your arse by eyes
to the shoulders
I am filling your vodka
and you leaving the tip
asking for lighter
I am giving
and once more,
you don't have bra
you have time.
Sometimes I would like to be bartender only for some time. This is inspired by true story of a friend. This is only to give you the filling what happened, or what can happened. The secret dreams of happy husband? Hehe ...
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